You guys must have heared of the overly-used line "I had the right love at the wrong time". I think that was even a part of a song or something :). whatever. I know it seems Cliché to say such thing, but it's the perfect line to tell my story...

I don't know what he would feel if he read my blog, maybe he would be happy since he told me he likes it when I mention him in my posts. But this post, would pobably upset him. I hope not.

He is MY perfect lover. You know how girls would often complain that guys today are unloyal, or it's hard to find someone who would love you so much that he would be willing to give up a lot of stuff for you, even his vices. But still would not be obsessed with you in such a way that you would need space. He's probably one of those things that I could brag about.

I found a lot of persons in him..

He's my bestfriend. I absolutely learned to trust him fully, I even told him my deepest darkest secret without any pag-aalinlangan. Because I know he won't judge me. He's my kakwentuhan. Actually when we were just getting close, I kinda like treated him like a girl best friend. I complained to him about my love life, unknowingly that each word that I uttered had hurt him. because he was also my secret lover. I was so manhid not to figure that out, he loved me so much that he was actually willing to wait until college, and that's the time that he would tell me that he likes me. But napaaga ang events, thanks to a certain friend. Then he bacame my lover, and I love him too(elaborate later). I finally found my superman, if you're a friend, you would probably know that during my sophomore year I was really anxious to find my superman image, I saw it in him, he protected me so much, he even wants to talk to a tambay who looked at my legs, or those who called out "miss, miss!" but the moment that I tell him not to do that, he wouldn't.

Going back, he bacame my lover, he told me that I'm his inspiration, it was flattering to be one of the reasons why someone's grades would boost up. He had gave up drinking just because I didn't like him doing it, he would rather be with me than go on an outing, he actually chose to talk to me and stay at home than go out with his friends and persue his vice.

Ofcourse a person's love story wouldn't be all rainbows and butterflies. There would always be the occasional storms. See, my mom is anti-love life. And my sister, is showing her doubt, and her trust is kinda shaky na because she thinks that I'm keeping secrets. When the moment came that I told him na I had to kinda give him up for my mother's and sister's trust/s(?), he was absolutely willing to wait all over again and to endure the pain again.

Sometimes, doing what is right could hurt you, it could hurt you real bad.

He said na ok lang na masaktan siya basta wag lang ako mapagalitan dahil sakanya. We had to face the fact that we would not probably see each other, if not for some organizational meetings. And we would probably not talk that often. All that he asked in return was that I to stay loyal, and na sana hindi mawala feelings ko for him kahit di na kami nagkikita or nagkakausap. Sabi nya, na kahit mahirap kakayanin niya para sakin, kasi he was willing to do almost anything for me. It even makes me laugh(actually, it's making me teary-eyed thinking about it) na nagiipon na siya ngayon palang for our first date, kahit na sobrang tagal pa non. Tapos when I was sad, he asked a couple of people to text me and tell me that _____(he, him, yung guy na tinutukoy ko knina pa x) ) loves me...

I love him so much.

I couldn't elaborate really on things, because I don't want my life to be an open book. kaya I would end this long and cheesy blog about him na... I just want to brag about my perfect lover. :')