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are we back into being strangers? ..by idiot
Sunday, October 28, 2007
"I'm afraid to be rejected. because it hurts so much", I was the one who said those words.. yet unconsciously I made someone feel that way.. Only to realize my mistakes when it was too late..
He comforted me when I was sad, he made me smile a dozen of times, he made me cry a lot, he cared so much.. but I was an idiot not to make him feel appreciated. But what he didn't know was beneath the words that I uttered against him, behind the hurts that I made him feel, was that I cared so deeply, I missed him dearly every time he wasn't around. I anticipated his messages, and the next time that we'll see each other. BUT AGAIN, I WAS SUCH AN IDIOT TO HURT HIM SO MUCH.
"pero kasi sinasaktan niya din ako." that's what I would often tell myself. Pero what I did pala had hurt him more..
He was the only guy who made me cry, he even made me ill (I swear, nagkasakit ako dahil nag away kami ng sobra). Now what's the meaning of all these? I couldn't comprehend it back then.
I remember the day when he said goodbye.. he promised before na di niya ko iiwan.. pero what he did was exactly the contrary. The moment I asked him to stay, was the exact moment that he left.
Pero he didn't forget, he would sometimes send quotes that's so relevant, pero I would not respond. And you know why? Because I know for sure that he had turned his attention and affection to someone else. Even before all this ended... Kahit na yung times na ok pa kami... He was drifting away. I think... and nasasaktan ako ng sobra..
You know what, I even tried to delete him from my life, I removed him from my Y!M list, my friendster and my phonebook.. One time he texted me, and I asked "cno to?" coz I really didn't know. then he said "GANUN KA PALA KABILIS MAKALIMOT, SIYA NGA PALA SI *tooooot* e2. (cnbi nia name nia a, secret ko nalang yon)" The guilt was super major.
Honestly, mas pinahalagahan ko pa yung taong nakakapagpangiti sakin kaysa sa taong kaya akong paiyakin at pangitiin. -my greatest mistake.
Now everything is too late, I would often try and talk to him, pero he wasn't like before, obviously, he got over, now.. I'm the one who is falling and failing.
THERE'S NO USE CRYING OVER SPILLED MILK RIGHT? but that's the only thing that I could do right now, even if it's completely pointless..